well I just got my new health care card. I've moved provinces and love the fact that this one gives me the option to donate my body to science. I had only thought that was possible in the sates. So I am going to call and find out what my options are all about. I don't want to give it for use with others. I know that some find that wrong and do do it. But I do not want that for me. I have a view that God can and will do what he Will with others. I was made this way and will go out when He so chooses for me to go. But the body can be used. So when that dies I want it to be all gone. However Science can use it to make the bodies of others better. But it does not need mine. Well that is that.

another day in my room

well, life is up and down. I am trying to find the middle as I said before. I wish I could run away to some far off land and make things different. I'd find new things that I would do and see new people. But the truth of it all is..... there would be new problems, and new things to figure out and I would have to come up with new ways to make it right. Up that would be what it would be. Just another place, but the same stuff.

Life is

you know you can go out fighting with everything that is around you or you can sit back and take it all in. I think there must be somewhere in the middle that you should be. I am stuck however going back and forth. I have not found that middle and therefor am just swinging back and forth. My ups are high and my downs are hell. I hope sometime to find just peace.

Tired

So I am trying to write a book. Ya like the thousands of people out there. I am writing lots sort of but the ideas come to my mind in the middle of the night, when I lay my head down on the pillow. If only I could write as fast as my mind goes. Then I'd be the best out there, and so would many others. So I'd still be where I am but the pic would look different to me. One day I will have a book, and all will be nice. Tell then i am just here doing this and that.

I found the way back

ya I really was not sure how to get back on here. But with the help of some clicks and determination I was able to get here. Here being the blank spot on a computer page. I guess I am just feeling out of sorts so early in the morning. not feeling the love...... lol.

can this be home?

well we all have to
start something that is bigger then our self; And maybe that is what I have found here? Come to the nice age of 35, time to look at me and see what the world around of me really is.........ya know when you figured out that they lie and cheat and steal and on and on.......
Ya the time to make it all happen or nothing at all. I am a BLOG. Come out of the dark times of saying hi to a strange in the line, and just jump into the big world and say a big old HI!!!!
well there we have it. Never belonged in a home, never belonged in school, never belonged at work. But one thing is for sure............ ya can't kick me off the planet!!!! I belong.........ya I belong