TODAY I CAN BREATH

Well, once again I have not been on here...
I think for a while there I lost it; well I thought I was lost;
turns out I was just healing and taking things in.

I don't like being lost, or wondering about everything all the time
it takes up so much no need to energy.

I have been doing so much better;
I get to see my daughter so much more and we spend the best of times,
I bought far more then I could list... lol
took my trip and survived it..
Stepped out and made attemts to meet people
and date some.

Date thing not so good... lol
I was hanging out with one, not dating
Guess that was the best thing to do.
My dates were "what am I thinking" dates
and my hang out friends, were fun

Still hang out with em; but one
well....
I knew he liked me and I  was not sure;
turns out that was for the best;
we built this way about us and a good foundation.
When timing (I say God) was right;
we chose to give dating a try.

Well we are the same in thought and motion;
So dating turned to commitments and that in turn, turns to
future plans.
(I like this!!!)

So know I am not so lost:
and when I get lost, there is someone to call out to me and pull me back.
The pain is still fresh with my loss; and I don't know if it will ever go...
But I have hope; and I don't cry all the time.

I have a future:
always did, just did not know what it would look like;
still don't know,

BUT TODAY I CAN BREATH

Sunndae