Again

No reason,
Just over.
A fool I feel,
Broken inside.
Heart in my throat,
Tears in my eyes.
Does anybody care,
Can you hear my pain?

What I want

Ok time to be real...
All I want is for someone to see past all the fake strength I put on ...
Someone to save me from all the hurt I feel...
Someone...
To see me for me,
And still want me...

Naked

If I should die before I wake;
I pray The Lord, my soul he will take.
My children's eyes be dry from tears;
For they know my life I lived well with little fear.
If I should die before the dawn;
My soul, with God, at peace and in no harm.
My loved ones know I meant to show them all my soul.

But if I should not die and do awake;
May God grant me grace, peace and joy; away from the pains of today.
For if the dawn shines down on my face;
I pray The Lord, my soul be free, the wind to flow my love to thee, this I is what I pray for me today.

Growing up

It's funny when your older,
You can see what your doing...
And understand why you do it...
And have the wisdom to correct it...
But for some reason ...
You think you should have known better!!!
Lol

Freedom To Be ...

Sometimes I forget to be free from fear.
I ask others to just be themselves.
Ask em to always be just them.

But I forget how hard that can be, when you want to be
Held by someone, keep them close.
You act like a fool, giggle, and blush.

I need to remember just to be me,
And just maybe,
He will keep wanting me...

(pic is from today. Oct 20/12)

Slow Pace

ugh... don't like this new format!!! oh well.. getting used to the changes I can not control!!!
All in all; things are going well....
lol was re-reading older posts... growing up is so MUCH fun...

Well an up date would go like this
- moved into a nice house!!! so like it!!! so much room...
- let all the boys go; got off them silly date sites... (wow!! I can understand why ya all single)
- Was knocked off my unicorn! ouch! (I'm standing back up, and brushing off the WTF!)
- but you know me... got me a crush... and he has one for me too... so ya heart back out there
- new bedroom set
- new kitchen set
- love my new couch!

* well what can I say, sometimes there are tears and I miss James, but for the better part, I am falling into this new chapter life ok... (today is a good day!)

***  well.... when you get really lost... sometimes you have to just decide your not lost, and set roots down.
not at the root setting part, but I'm not lost; just traveling to my destination at a slow pace. LOL

Remember to drink your cup, so there is room for more!!