Broken

The heart is amazing. It keeps on beating even when it is broken beyond repair. 

I gave what I thought was everything

This one time

This time.

But I must have somewhere kept a piece. Cus it still beats. 

No matter how much pain, it beats on .

I'd say maybe its my soul that is broken.

But I gave that to God and he takes great care of it.

My mind no, that is lost.

My body hurts and feels the pain run through like shards of of broken glass.

But broken it is not.

So I guess my heart can't be a broken,

For I'm sure it's not made of glass. 

But something inside of me

Some place special

Some place, I shared only with ...

That is what is broken, shattered

Unable to be repaired. 

Sunndae

Re-thinking

I'm glad I got it out. Well I have before but this time I stayed calm and very true to me. It was by text and no talking just a passing of words back and forth phone to phone. 

But there was some hidden truths passed without the words. The lack of words written. The cruel left out words of love and desire. Just retort of what has been said before. The same thing just different sentences. 

If one can be so cruel now... Will it not be again??? Could I go again and feel this hurt and cruel nature. 

No answers did I get, but release of this mind twisting fate. 

The truth is... Only he has. 

The pain is mine alone. 

There will be so much more pain to come.  And then the healing will finally start. 

It's not just up to him if he gets to be apart. This truth I must remember, or destroyed I will be. 

Sunndae 

I remember

I remember when you couldn't wait to say good morning...

Shattered

I came to you with a torn heart,

It was bruised and had some scars,

I told you about the the marks and you

   helped to bend some parts I could not reach, the ones so deep. 

You fixed it up nice,

I was glad for the help. 

I handed over

This new fixed heart

Gave to you

You took it with a smile. 

I had no idea

There where no signs

No warning!

I did not know

You where going to shatter it. 

And here I am

Empty inside, 

Trying to find the parts

You kicked across the universe. 

I came to you with a torn heart

I did not know

You would help to mend it

I did not know

You intended to smash it

There was no warning

There was no sign

Just pieces

Scattered across the universe

SUNNDAE