Re-thinking

I'm glad I got it out. Well I have before but this time I stayed calm and very true to me. It was by text and no talking just a passing of words back and forth phone to phone. 

But there was some hidden truths passed without the words. The lack of words written. The cruel left out words of love and desire. Just retort of what has been said before. The same thing just different sentences. 

If one can be so cruel now... Will it not be again??? Could I go again and feel this hurt and cruel nature. 

No answers did I get, but release of this mind twisting fate. 

The truth is... Only he has. 

The pain is mine alone. 

There will be so much more pain to come.  And then the healing will finally start. 

It's not just up to him if he gets to be apart. This truth I must remember, or destroyed I will be. 

Sunndae